Year: 2019

How was 2019?

Ohhhh, let’s see how I did on my 19 for 2019.

  1. 24 books / read habit
  2. Eat more plants
  3. Try the local farmers’ market
  4. Choose a home renovator
  5. Get a cool cubby house
  6. Consider something for kids to climb too
  7. Journal habit / write habit
  8. Sketchbook habit / art habit
  9. 12 new classes / workshops (crossing it out because I tried my best and I could only do 11!)
  10. Choosing to enjoy life everyday*
  11. Be more eco friendly
  12. Make house even nicer e.g. no clutter
  13. Be less sedentary / daily walk
  14. Ballet posture
  15. Meet new people
  16. Play an instrument
  17. Clear desk
  18. Clear paperwork
  19. Less computer time

And as for my 2019 resolutions?

  • *Enjoy life – This was the main theme. For me it meant having a sense of being present and alive, and I have been gradually picking away at that one. I’m getting better at it.
  • Read a book every day – Yes.
  • Write in journal every day – Nope.
  • Draw in sketchbook every day – Nope.
  • Follow your curiosity / Make the time to do it interestingly – Nope.
  • Join the world – I tried. But nope.

Sneaking in a couple of pages of books while being around kids is pretty easy. But not journal writing or sketch-booking. And when they’re finally asleep and I have alone time (around 9pm) it’s like I do have the capacity to read more books, but not to do journalling or sketch-booking. I gotta think on that one.

August-October I was medium-sick.
October-December I had some medium-stress.
So I didn’t really feel like myself from August. It’s taken a long time to get back to feeling like me again (i.e. now! end of year!) Just in time to get ready for a new year.

Hope Pt 2

From Hope in the Dark by Rebecca Solnit:

“We inhabit, in ordinary daylight, a future that was unimaginably dark a few decades ago, when people found the end of the world easier to envision than the impending changes in everyday roles, thoughts, practices that not even the wildest science fiction anticipated. Perhaps we should not have adjusted to it so easily. It would be better if we were astonished every day.”

Winter Update

Over halfway through the year! I am plodding along. Plid plod. I get two mornings a week to write morning pages and get into (what I call) “sharing mode.” Most of the time, though, I feel like keeping to myself and my thoughts aren’t as clear, because I’m not journalling. Fog-head.

Everything is OK. Winter holidays are coming up and I’m looking forward to that, even though it will be hard work with two active and strong-willed children!

This year, the kids stopped having afternoon naps, and so those beautiful afternoon breaks have gone. I have two half-days off (Monday and Saturday) and nights after 9PM. You’d think that would equal as much Me-Time as having an office job (the equivalent of nights and the weekend!) but to be honest, having an office job was:
a) easier because it was mostly Me-Time (there weren’t any kids asking me non-stop questions and giving me non-stop requests);
b) harder because it was more boring and I didn’t get to build a fort or visit an amazing adventure playground or toast marshmallows on a fire pit at my sister’s house or watch “Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them” on a weekday.

It’s always changing! Next year my eldest (4) goes to primary school. I hope it’s okay. A few kids have been mean to him this year. I thought teasing/bullying would happen in primary school, but I didn’t expect it in preschool. He’s confused by it all. “But I’m really nice,” he says, wanting me to explain the whole phenomenon. I don’t know what to say. The only thing I could think to say was, “If someone said that to me, I think I would go far away from them, and be my own friend, or play with someone else who is nice.”

I remember my mum used to say, “Just ignore them – they have the problem, not you. Maybe they feel insecure, or they want to feel power, or they have problems at home, and they’re taking it out on you.” But “just ignore them” was frustrating advice. I didn’t want to ignore them, I wanted to feel empowered. I wanted them to stop.

I think I’ll ask my kid to tell me when he feels uncomfortable. If it happens again, I think I’ll ask the teachers to talk to the parents of the other children. Nothing’s going to change if the other families don’t have conversations. Maybe I need to research this whole topic properly.

In other news, I’ve started a casual art group – an evening meetup where peeps can come & work on their art/craft projects in a social setting. The first meetup is tonight. I’ve no idea how it will go! We’ll see. I’d also like to get to a Greens meetup and meet some local Greens people. Maybe in spring.