I had such good intentions with my 2014 resolution, Craft. Working on a skill, working on a craft. In early February, everything was going fine. Then… pregnancy and my world goes upside-down. And I had to find my feet as a freelancer. Skip forward half a year to July, and… hopeless. I haven’t stuck to anything! I’ve been running amok!
Well. James and I had one glorious week off, last week, and we went far north, to the top-right of Australia. Cape Tribulation, the Daintree rainforest, and then down the coast a bit to Palm Cove. It was beautiful and I had time and space to think. We went to the beach (a different one each day!) most mornings and meditated. Oh, hippies.
I read the follow-up to The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin, called Happier at Home, because I’ve really been wanting to make our home into a place I love. I’m not good with nesting. While reading the book, I identified with Rubin as an “under buyer” – we rationalise ourselves out of most purchases. I made some notes on her resolutions and observations.
I stayed away from screens/internet most of the time, except to take photos and watch movies at night, but when we returned, I checked my resolutions list and saw that it needed an overhaul. My main resolution, Craft, wasn’t going anywhere, and my smaller resolutions had long been neglected.
So I have simplified, and now I have 3 big resolutions and 2 small.
|Live bigger||Rubin chose “Bigger” as her big theme, and the more I thought about it, the more I agreed. I take the smaller options, I under-buy, I live a small life. Not that there’s anything wrong with that… but I want to try living bigger. I think the concept will make sense to anyone out there who feels like they live the “small life”. I was explaining it to James by telling him about a friend who, if he went to the Grand Canyon, would absolutely take the helicopter ride around the Canyon, because that would be an amazing experience – but I would never think to get the helicopter ride. It would feel like a ridiculous extravagance; I would rationalise myself out of the experience and the purchase. I want to rebel against my nature, at least for the rest of this year.|
|Feel good||This might sound nuts, but I’m never really in touch with what makes me feel good, or whether I am feeling good or not. (This is directly related to going for smaller options, under-buying, etc. Most days, if I’m out and about, instead of really thinking about what I would like to eat – or what would be healthy – I go for the cheapest and simplest thing, like a bread roll from the bakery.) Meditation and m-pages helps, but I want to nurture this. I want to nurture the heck out of this!|
|Loving kindness||This isn’t referring to Buddhism or a form of meditation; it’s more a reminder for me about how I would like to feel, and how I would like my state of mind to be.|
- Writing 30 minutes a day
- No internet in travel or bed
Let’s see how that goes.